Oh, how I have missed blogging the last few weeks. I am three weeks into a cough/cold that just won’t quit and 19 weeks into growing the littlest Bell and my butt has been thoroughly kicked. Every chance that I get, I climb into my perfectly cozy bed and am asleep within minutes. Sometimes, something has to give and lately...
Three years ago, I found a small part of my voice and shared this picture on social media. It was an absolutely terrifying day. For the most part, I am somewhat of a reserved person who enjoys observing others and the happenings of life. It is not often that I divulge my deepest secrets to those around me. However, October...
A Birthday Letter to You, Mom Learning to love throughout my life has proven to be a never ending adventure. You were my first great love. You were the first one that showed me that love can make you feel safe, happy, adventurous, and peaceful all in the same moment. As time moved on past my childhood, the love that...
Finding that place of okay can sometimes feel like an insurmountable idea. We have all been in this position of working through grief whether it is obvious or not. A few years ago, I went through a substantial amount of therapy for my job – a group of us saw a psychotherapist every other month in an effort to increase...
Here, in this crazy looking blob, is our happy and healthy 10.5 week old babe…who had no interest in turning and giving us that beautiful side profile that everyone pictures with ultrasounds. Instead, here is our kiddo face up, and if you look really close you can see both hands up by their face. We did get a show right...
It was just a normal visit to the dentist on a sunny afternoon, yet the ball of angst waiting in my stomach couldn’t be calmed away. I had been there just one month before for and needed a return visit to check on the work that had been started. During that initial visit, I had to tell them that I...
Oh, how I am enjoying the sweet simplicity of summer. With every day, every moment nausea that is controlling my life it has given me the opportunity to sit back and really enjoy the summer time with S and Thomn…or at least lay on the couch and enjoy the two of them. S has been utilizing her creative toddler mind...
After struggling through the better part of a work day, Thomn and I picked up S from school and headed to the doctor’s office. Half way there we realized that neither of us grabbed the diaper bag that was waiting for us by the door as we also listened to S vocalize her displeasure of going for a long car...
Waiting. Forever waiting. Do any of you feel like you are always waiting for something? Sometimes being patient and anticipating something isn’t so bad. I love to have something fun to look forward to – a date with Thomn, vacation, a Red Hot Chili Peppers concert, hearing S’s giggle as she has discovered something new…my list could go on and...
“Don’t throw up!” The comment I made to Thomn right before the ultrasound started. The air in the room was heavy as our doctor looked just as nervous as we were feeling. Really it was a remark for myself more than anyone else, but Thomn glanced up as he squeezed my hand and said, “who, me?” “All three of us!”...
