I’ve posted a lot of pictures of my newly growing family on social media lately, but I want you to know that I still see you. I see the frustration and anger that flows through your fingers as you scroll through looking at pictures and updates from friends, family…and maybe even acquaintances. I see the sadness in the depths of...
After the storm comes the rainbow and I am here to tell you that I am living in the beauty of all of the colors right now. The hope and fear that I felt when I was pregnant with T4 has turned to peace now that he is here with us. We are almost four weeks into being a family...
I am a big, hot, messy ball of nerves and, whether or not I would like to admit it, hormones too. Wednesday was my last day of work for now and it feels more than a little surreal. I thought for sure that the following days would feel long and productive as I finished getting ready for T4 to be...
Wow, you look like you are ready to pop! You must be so ready to have that baby. These are frequent comments that I hear at the grocery store, doctor’s office, work, Target…pretty much everywhere I go. They, of course, are commenting on the dark circles under my eyes, my large protruding belly, and overall tiredness that surely shows on...
In my last ramblings, I promised to tell you about my doctors appointment that I had a month back or so. The thing is, I am not so sure how to really convey my feelings or what it is that I am even feeling. Perhaps that is why it has taken me so long to put it in words. You...
Happy New Year friends! How quickly the holidays flew by in the Bell house. Thomn and I both had 10 wonderful days off from work and made the most of our time with S. We introduced her to many of our Christmas traditions that she was too little to understand last year, and thoroughly enjoyed the two days that it...
As the holiday season is upon us, I have been looking forward to so many things. Hanging our stockings, decorating the Christmas tree and experiencing the excitement of it all with S. Through all of the happiness and cheer, I have also been on the lookout for an elusive feather ornament. You see, after our first miscarriage in 2012, we...
Am I enough? This is one of the questions that has been rolling around my head for the last few weeks. As I was laying in bed a few nights ago, my friendly pregnancy app, reminded me that soon I would be 24 weeks along and I did the reverse math and realized the littlest Bell will be here in...
I just don’t know if I can do it…but before I get into it, I suppose I should warn you to stop reading here if you aren’t caught up on this season’s, This Is Us. Last week the show ended with a cliffhanger where we found out that Kate has lost her baby at 10 weeks along. This show always...
We have an entirely perfect and healthy baby boy that kicked and squirmed his way through our ultrasound! What a relief it was to walk out of the hospital and know that for today – everything is okay. I would have loved to find out we were having a boy or a girl, but there is something so wonderfully sweet...
