Here, in this crazy looking blob, is our happy and healthy 10.5 week old babe…who had no interest in turning and giving us that beautiful side profile that everyone pictures with ultrasounds.  Instead, here is our kiddo face up, and if you look really close you can see both hands up by their face.  We did get a show right at the end of the ultrasound when it appeared they waived while moving.

Time seems to be flying by so quickly.  When I was pregnant with S, I felt that time just crawled by and each day felt like this huge accomplishment to still be pregnant.  Now each day feels like an accomplishment when I make it to bed. After working all day and spending the evening with my fun-loving toddler or spending the day with my family and fighting my way through early pregnancy, I am utterly exhausted.  I see, and feel, the weeks moving by so quickly that I have suddenly become fearful.  I am still afraid that something will happen to the baby that I am growing, but I have also become fearful of losing the relationship that I have with S.  She is the one that first made me a mother of a living child and every day brings us delight as Thomn and I watch her learn and grow into this incredible human being.  I hope over time she enjoys having a sibling to grow up with, but also know that this will rock the foundation of what she knows to the core.

So tonight, as she cuddled into my arms to fall asleep, I gave an extra kiss or five to her forehead and decided we could be fearful of the unknown tomorrow.  Tonight, is filled with love, sweet baby kisses, and the vision of our littlest baby waiving.